Breaking Boundaries

People Aren't Here To Understand You (An Essay)

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People aren’t here to understand you.

Nor are you here to be understood.

This doesn’t mean you aren’t or can’t be understood.

But it’s not required.

And…

it’s impossible to be fully understood

and seen

by another anyways.

(with one exception)

Slivers?

Absolutely.

The entirety?

Absolutely not.

Not only because most people can’t see straight in the first place,

(their view is skewed by conditioning, filters, judgments, the mind, desires, and other distortions that make it impossible to see themselves, let alone life, the moment or another, purely and accurately, so they have no choice but to view you through the limited lens of themselves)

but also because we are all moving and evolving constellations.

Your loved one may understand this moment’s iteration of you and not the next.

They may be open to you today and closed off to you tomorrow for reasons that have nothing to do with you.

So to base your experience of being / feeling loved on…

being understood by another

feeling seen by another

having another human show up in a particular way that hits the spot just right

on another human at all

is to put unnecessary weight onto something that isn’t required in the first place.

You don’t need to be understood.

And it’s wonderful when you are.

And…

by the time you don’t actually care about being seen or understood,

and you *are* seen and understood,

it doesn’t impact a thing.

Because it makes no difference at all.

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The Power of Mobility (An Essay)

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Mobility work is the same as inner work.

Doing it automatically shows you where you’re currently deficient / limited / stuck / living with dysfunction.

And you get to come face-to-face with the adaptations you’ve created in order to cope with that imbalance.

Just like chiro / physio / stretching / rolling doesn’t actually address the core issue,

(it can provide temporary relief from the results of your ongoing neglect and immobility, but it just creates a dependency on something external that doesn’t ‘fix’ the ‘problem’)

tools to manage your inner experience are no different.

And…

it’s not that there’s anything fundamentally wrong with any of these things.

They may be the perfect things along the way, or in a specific season, as you begin to trust yourself more and eventually wean yourself off of these external bandaids you lean on for support.

And when they are used not as a compensation,

but as a beautiful addition to an already solid and functioning system,

even better.

But the work is ultimately about no longer taking and settling for shortcuts when you are fully capable of,

and are completely designed for,

true stability and self-reliance.

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The Atmosphere of Money (An Essay)

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money

like every other aspect of your life

is either being used and experienced

as an extension and expression of truth

or as a compensation

this is why it doesn’t matter what the amount is

or even how it’s moving

spending / saving / investing / earning

even the terms themselves don’t matter

energetically,

there is no dividing line

there’s just the environment in which you’re playing the game of money or anything else

is it restrictive or is it free-flowing?

is there fear or is there knowing?

how is the overall atmosphere?

that will tell you all you need to know

and that will tell you more than any money book or guru can

if you are giving out of guilt or obligation or a need to feel good about yourself for said giving

that’s not IT

if you are saving out of a fear of not having enough or because that’s just what you were taught to do

that’s not IT

if you are spending in order to deal with your internal anxiety or to fill a gaping hole inside yourself

that’s not IT

if you are earning in ways that you are internally and fundamentally opposed to, just for the sake of making money

that’s not IT

if you are trying to earn money in a way that your human wants to, but since it’s not ‘working’, you apply force and effort and self-judgment due to this apparent ‘failure’ (under the assumption that you are right about this thing being the thing that you should make money through)

that’s also not IT

and

as always

whatever is not IT

will always lead to IT

so ALL of it is IT

so like…

you can never fuck this up

so who fucking cares what wonky shit you have been up to up until this point

just keep cleaning it up

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The Narcissist Never Gets Away With It

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the ‘narcissist’

or whatever similar creature

you perceive and experience negatively

and / or feel victimized by

and / or want revenge upon

for all they’ve ‘done’ to ‘you’

(but more accurately, and firstly, and in excess — to themselves)

never ‘gets away with it’

they are living 24-7 in that torturous internal prison that ‘makes’ them do the ‘incomprehensible’

and what you experienced

as horrific as it was

while being caught in that twisted web that you did in fact sign up for

(at the deepest level, of course, to access your own salvation by erecting yourself even further)

was only the echo

the overflow

a tiny portion of

a much larger war going on

you were just a casualty

as it were

a necessary

and impersonal

canvas to bleed upon

which was your ‘job’

(obviously)

to take what was given

at the hands of the sickest

and

being caught in that crossfire

of another’s externalized internal war

while gross and seemingly ‘unforgivable’

(but we don’t need to ‘forgive’ in these parts, remember?)

there is nothing you could do

or orchestrate to have done to them

that would be ‘worse’ than what they are already experiencing

and doing to themselves

ab-so-lute-ly nothing

and how you were affected by their split from who they are

(but even more accurately — by how you split from yourself in order to ‘withstand’ it)

is so inconsequential

not just because they don’t care

but because the level of pain

disconnection

confusion and density

that they habitually operate from

leaves zero room

to consider you

(or anyone else for that matter)

beyond their own

incessant need

to meet their needs

that are never met

because no matter what they do

and no matter how hard they try

they cannot quell

that emptiness

that repeatedly swallows them whole

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Owing 52K In Taxes (An Essay)

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“I was expecting and saving for 20-25k in taxes but certainly didn’t expect that to be doubled. But it didn’t phase me and still doesn’t. There was even something hot about seeing the money go. And though I have had to cool it on the bigger spontaneous purchases, I have not changed anything else about my lifestyle. I still feel wealthy. And love seeing the account growing again.”

The above message I received today is what REAL ‘money freedom’ looks and feels like.

Having ZERO hang ups or illusions about money so that you’re cool no matter what and you know how to ‘make’ whatever the fuck you want.

This hottie owed 52K in taxes this year and she had 56K between two accounts and paid her debt it in full (HOT) and didn’t fucking flinch over how ‘little’ remained (SUPER HOT).

THIS is what MY work is about.

FREEDOM. ON. EVERY. LEVEL.

Because ‘money freedom’ is not about fucking money.

And yes, it includes money.

But it’s not about the accumulation of it.

And yes, you can stack as many dollars as you like.

REAL ‘money freedom’ is about the truth of it.

It’s about seeing through your own bullshit that’s in the way of it moving as freely and as naturally as it’s meant to.

And feeling so certain in your power and ability to generate it,

that even if all that money ‘goes away’ for a hot second,

it’s no biggie because you know how money ACTUALLY works so you never fear ‘losing’ it or not having ‘enough’.

If this is how you want to exist,

(and you already do when you have zero shit in the way)

and how you wanna play with dollars,

(and everything else in your life)  

and true freedom is your North Star,

(not the fucking money)

I’m the bitch you wanna fuck with.

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Money Actually Talks To You (An Essay)

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Every dollar tells you where it wants to go.

Where it belongs.

How much.

When.

And how.

It also tells you where it is right now and exactly how to access it.

And…

I know the idea within the new age / spiritual community is that you are the one telling the money what to do.

That you decide and it moves for you.

That you are in charge of the money.

But my experience is that it was already decided (just like any creation of mine) and I’m either a clean vessel for it to move seamlessly to, from, and through,

or I’m not.

I have never once told my money or my art what to do.

And I don’t have personal judgements as to what comes through me or how much.

Obviously.

I have never decided THIS IS WHAT I’M GOING TO CREATE!!!! THIS IS HOW MUCH I’M GOING TO MAKE!!!!

I have simply been told or shown what is ‘ready’ to be ‘created’ and that is what I fucking ‘create’.

On the spot.

But it was already ‘decided’ aka in full form when I saw it / felt it / knew it.

I was just tapped in and I filled it in.

Like I’m supposed to be and do.

But it wasn’t me that created it.

It was me that honoured what already was / is by bringing it into form.

(Listen and obey)

In that sense,

it’s not about me personally.

And…

it’s also a deeply personal experience.

Because I get the lived experience and ultimate pleasure of doing exactly what I’m told to do,

exactly when and how I’m told to do it,

with nothing in the way.

And nothing on this planet tops that.

And so…

Money, like my art, isn’t about me.

And both are sourced from ME aka the unseen.

And I’m either a clean and clear channel for whatever already is and wants to come through me,

or I’m not.

And if I’m not,

my work is to clear that channel.

From now until infinity.

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Don't Hire A Mentor Unless... (An Essay)

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A while back I was messaging with a hottie who was telling me about her experience with a mentor we both know.

And she mentioned how it didn’t ‘work’.

But like…

only one thing actually works and you can’t get that ‘from’ a mentor or anyone else.

And typically those who pay to work with mentors (at least from what I’ve seen in the space I’ve moved through and out of),

are those who already don’t trust themselves and are looking outside of themselves for answers,

and are hoping that this next mentorship / person / course / whatever the fuck will be that golden ticket that can override the work that only they can do.

But like…

No one can do it for you.

No one’s ‘paradigm’ can save you from yourself if what you truly want is to be free of yourself and of all paradigms.

#theultimatemission

You’re either meeting and facing and working with what’s already inside of you in each moment or you’re not.

There are no tricks or tools or techniques that can help you do that specific thing.

But there are plenty if you want to feel like you’re doing something along the way.

Also, stating the obvious here, no one on this planet is responsible for what you do or don’t do inside of yourself or with your life.

If you were / are leaning on, and looking to, another instead of erecting, and looking inside, yourself,

you’re going to end up disappointed.

(but only until you see through why you felt the need to do that in the first place and then you will see that it was absolutely perfect)

So…

If you are hiring someone to ‘get’ something,

(not the vibe)

that is your first clue that you’re signing up for shit that won’t do shit for you except be an experience that you will look back on to realize that you abandoned yourself and ignored your knowing because you thought someone else knew or had something you didn’t.

You were looking for permission to trust what you already know.

And to do what you already wanted to do.

But you don’t need a mentor for that.

And…

Paying to play with someone for the fun and thrill and pleasure and truth of it…

is another thing entirely.

DO THAT.

And…

it’s not ultimately a problem that you looked, or continue to look, to others for what is already available inside of you.

Because eventually and inevitably,

you won’t do that anymore.

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Submit And Frame (An Essay)

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‘Submit’ and ‘frame’ aren’t terms I often use in my pieces (that’s Sanna’s language), but I’m going to use both because they are perfect for me to explain how IT works.

Most people want the thing (whatever it is) without actually having to submit to themselves.

Moment-by-moment.

Not just once or once in a while.

That’s why they do / try all the things to ‘get’ the thing EXCEPT the only thing that works.

They’ll try everything BUT that.

Well…

that’s not even accurate.

You can’t ‘try’ to submit.

You either do or you don’t.

And most people don’t because it’s wild as fuck and the ‘noise’ is too much to withstand.

They want the comfort of the known while craving the unknown and then curse the gods for what they can’t ‘get’.

And…

Your current and forevermore work is to erect yourself enough to frame every aspect of yourself and your life so that each piece is clean and truly sourced from you.

From truth;

not compensation.

And most people won’t do that.

Many don’t even care to do that.

But if you’re hungry for the potent purity that is YOU,

the only way to ‘get’ IT,

is to submit.

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How To Know You've Made It (An Essay)

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peace is the indicator

clarity is the indicator

laughter is the indicator

joy is the indicator

freedom is the indicator

thrill is the indicator

ease is the indicator

simplicity is the indicator

knowing is the indicator

certainty is the indicator

deepening is the indicator

stillness is the indicator

satisfaction is the indicator

potency is the indicator

purity is the indicator

union is the indicator

more is the indicator

less is the indicator

everything is the indicator

nothing is the indicator

and anything in (and on) the way of (and to) this

is your moment-to-moment assignment

until everything is clear

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How To Make More Money (An Essay)

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I knew that’s what you wanted.

More money,

more freedom,

more experiences,

more things.

But there’s just one thing in the way.

Yes, just one.

If money’s not moving the way you want it to,

the required shift is fully,

and solely,

in your hands.

No one can do this for you.

No one is coming to save you.

And winning the lottery can’t ‘fix’ this glitch.

And…

this group conversation can’t override what you’re not willing to do ‘for’ your money.

But if you’re fucking ready to flip the switch,

because you’ve had enough of ‘not nearly enough’…

and/or you’re simply ready for the MORE you’ve always known you’re here for…

THEN. LET’S. FUCKING. GO.

Join me Sunday, June 15th from 11am-1pm EST on Zoom to get to the guts of your current (and/or ongoing) situation.

We will bridge the seeming divide between you and your money.

The ‘solution’ is simple,

and profound.

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How To Get It All (An Essay)

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It is your own (perceived) inner division that seemingly separates you from what you want and already are.

There is nothing but consciousness.

So the degree to which you are split within, is the degree to which you perceive lack without.

If you knew and experienced yourself to be God (which you are while in human form), there would be no inner division.

You’d be operating from truth.

From ultimate knowing.

And reaping the gold that comes from that state.

You wouldn’t be waiting, hoping, wishing, praying.

You wouldn’t try.

You wouldn’t be on a path of healing and becoming.

You’d just be BEING what you already are and have always been.

No split.

So…

the work as a human is to bridge that divide.

To get on board with the God that you are.

And you do this by facing and seeing through every single lie that tells you you’re less than everything -

and convinces you that you’re more than nothing.

Because it’s both.

And it’s neither.

It’s just an empty moment that houses all of eternity.

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Bothered By Billionaires? (An Essay)

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If you feel some type of way about other people making a lot of money,

or spend any amount of time and energy judging others for how they make or spend it (yes, even those billionaires you love to hate and love to blame for all that’s wrong in our ‘capitalist’ world),

you’re only outing yourself by projecting the lack of freedom and power YOU feel to generate the kind of life and money YOU truly desire to move through this world in a way that feels incredible to YOU.

Because if you were already doing that, you wouldn’t waste your time and energy focusing on what other equally free and sovereign beings are choosing to do with what they’ve created.

It’s insane that you are more bothered by what other people are doing than by the fact that you’re not doing what you know you’re here to do at the level you know you’re capable of.

LIKE WAKE UP.

Your choice to live small, and I’m not talking financially but that as well if it applies, is why you get so pissed at ‘the rich’ while simultaneously complaining about being / feeling ‘poor’, when what you ultimately want is financial freedom / to feel internally rich, but how can that be available to you when you judge the exact thing you desire?

How about instead of pointing at them, you sort out that internal conflict and start cleaning up your shit.

And maybe that includes a call with me.

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Don't Delete That Post (An Essay)

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I had a call with a hottie who made an offer online…

a TRUE offer

not an offer to ‘get’

just truth being expressed in a moment

which was an absolute edge for her

because she had ‘exposed’ herself by doing so

and when ‘nothing happened’ (impossible)

when her so-called ‘bold’ offer (bold only to her because of said edge in that moment) wasn’t responded to right away by her audience (silly human thinking it knows the when or the how and thinking something is ‘wrong’ if things don’t ‘happen’ in a specific way on some arbitrary timeline decided by the very small human mind)…

she felt so insecure and anxious about her offer (made in a moment of truth - making it the ultimate success regardless of next),

that she wanted to delete her post.

But if she was on a call with me of all people, what she actually wanted was to ride her edge even further.

I told her the only thing she needs to do is be with her (temporary) internal chaos and do what needs to be done until it’s still inside.

Because the issue isn’t the offer or the ‘lack’ of response from her audience.

The opportunity is to be bigger than the internal noise and external appearances.

To not move while the mind moves and while nothing seems to be moving ‘out there’.

To not act in response to the chatter of an unharnessed mind that has no idea what the fuck is actually going on.

#thehumanmindcanbesodumb

To be in charge of what’s happening ‘in here’, regardless of externals (and the mind is an external).

She was ready.

She stayed still.

She didn’t delete her offer.

And she made her biggest sale in business so far.

(100K)

P.S. If she, once still inside, STILL chose to delete her post, that would have been perfect and TRUE; not reactionary and compensatory. And, if she deleted it at the start because of her anxiety, it’s not like she would have ‘lost’ a thing. Everything is used and makes us more. She could have posted it again the next day (or even an hour later) or right after our call from a more solid place. Get it? It’s never about the thing itself. It’s about what you’re doing inside yourself with whatever is happening and not happening.

P.P.S. If you’re ready to go beyond your human bullshit so you can taste and touch what you know you’re actually here for, book a call with me here and we can chat til there’s nothing left.

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Dollars Can't Measure Rich Or Poor (An Essay)

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Being in poverty isn’t about not having money.

Although that can be a natural expression and extension of it.

Just like being truly rich isn’t about having a certain amount of money, although of course it can include a fuckton of it.

Poverty is just a deviation from what’s natural.

From who you really are.

You can be impoverished in any area.

In many areas beyond just fininacial.

You can have all the money you need and desire, and still be poor where it counts.

You can move through this world without a dollar to your name, and still be rich as fuck.

Dollars aren’t the indicator of rich or poor.

Except, of course, when they are.

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Normal Isn't Natural (An Essay)

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It’s not natural to be overweight.

It demonstrates (and further creates) imbalance.

It’s not natural to live in poverty.

It demonstrates (and further creates) imbalance.

It’s not natural to be in perpetual pain.

It demonstrates (and further creates) imbalance.

It’s not natural to be mentally ill.

It demonstrates (and further creates) imbalance.

It’s not natural to be sedentary / immobile.

It demonstrates (and further creates) imbalance.

It’s not natural to be addicted.

It demonstrates (and further creates) imbalance.

Just because it’s normal and normalized…

Just because we can (and do) adapt to every dysfunction…

Living in a state of perpetual compensation is not a natural way to be.

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Eat The Poison If You Want To (An Essay)

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You can eat whatever you want without ‘negative’ consequences when you exist in truth.

But most people don’t.

Much, if not all, of their life is a compensation.

Therefore, so is their eating.

Eating to soothe.

To control.

To get.

To lose.

To fill what’s empty.

When it’s not even their tummy.

That’s not living in truth.

That’s not being in charge of you or your food.

It’s the food leading you.

Oh, boy.

Or rather, your need to compensate makes you a slave to the external - in this case, food.

So yes, theoretically you can eat whatever you want when you live in truth, without any adverse consequences.

Just like that guru I heard about decades ago who took a hit of acid and was unaffected by it because he was energetically above the chemicals.

He didn’t go on a trip.

But experientially, almost no one exists at such a level where they could consume acid or whatever the fuck any have their system be completely unaffected.

Truth overrides all things, yes.

But again, most people don’t choose and live from truth.

They choose from compensation.

And people who choose to live from truth don’t need or desire to consume a specific thing just to prove they can.

“Lemme drink some of this bleach to show you how unaffected I am.”

No.

Truth-living isn’t about self-poisoning.

But if ‘poison’ was consumed,

they wouldn’t notice.

It would neutralize.

Their system would self-correct.

Naturally.

Or at the very least,

they’d take the steps to clean it out.

And return to purity once again.

Or they’d croak.

Who knows.

Circle of life and all that.

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Going Too Far Is Still Not Far Enough

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I love going ‘too far’.

I love when others react to that.

I love when me just being me activates and overwhelms someone.

Because I know what’s going on.

And yes, that turns me on.

While many avoid that tension, that edge, that illusory risk of offending or ‘losing’ someone by saying or doing the true thing regardless of any and every thing else,

I’m over here like BRING. IT. THE. FUCK. ON.

I go right into it.

And yes, most people collapse (well, their false self does, as it should and must).

And yes, I love that, too.

Their illusory walls can’t withstand the truth so of course they crumble until they don’t.

And the ones who actually want to be free of themselves,

who genuinely crave that level of liberation,

who are willing to see behind the veil of illusion they were holding so tightly to,

(even and especially by painting me in a tainted light to justify their own frustration at not yet fully owing themselves)

end up loving me for precisely what they previously judged me for…

Being exactly as I am.

Which ‘forced’ them to do the same.

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No Offence But You're Insane

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If you’re human, you’re mentally ill.

You don’t need a diagnosis to prove that.

Just look what goes on inside your mind.

If every bit of it was projected onto a screen for you and others to read 24/7,

you’d see that you’re insane.

Not truly.

But mentally.

Disordered.

Not coherent.

And…

coherence is still the baseline.

It’s the undercurrent of all things.

And the noise of the mind is just that.

Noise.

And…

the noise is not who you are.

It’s just what’s going on above the stillness.

And…

the noise itself is not a problem.

Identifying with the noise IS.

Believing the noise is who you are IS.

Being taken on that insane ride to crazytown whenever the noise takes over IS.

And of course, none of it is really a problem at all.

It’s just what IS.

For now.

And…

sanity IS an option.

By seeing that the noise is only noise.

Regardless of what it contains.

And that you are the one who listens.

The peace beneath the noise.

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The $1700 Edge (One Minute Clip)

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TRANSCRIPT

Her: “I’m testing the boundaries at the moment. I’m working with another teacher who you know, and just before I made an offer on this MasterClass, I had a session with her, and she had tested me and said, “Okay. Well, what do you feel comfortable offering?” kind of thing, and I felt like I handled it quite well. But I really struggled when it came to yours because there was nobody holding my hand, but I pushed myself with it as well. You were like, “Offer what’s true.” and I sat there with it and then I felt for my edges and I got to this point and I was like, “Oh, my God. I’m gonna do this thing on top of this other thing. I just did that and then I’m gonna do this”. And I was like but this is the only thing that feels right. Like I can’t, I couldn’t offer you anything else. There was nothing else I could give you that would be true. And I was just like okay, this is where I gotta go.”

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